People

I am at the point where I am ready to beat the living daylights out of this bitch. She thinks she can just talk all of the shit she wants and have there be no consequences. Well she is deadly mistaken. I tried to be nice to her after not liking her the first time but no she wants to go and ruin it by calling me a bitch fuck her! I want to keep my relationship with Leticia strong but I know it wont be if I beat he friends ass. I don't know what to do. I just have so much going on in my life right now. I mean I am not living at home and I have no way of supporting myself right now. I am looking for a job but I cannot seem to find one no matter how hard I try. I don't eat for the fact that there is no food where I am staying. I just don't know what to do. I wish someone would just come along and save me from all of this but I know it doesn't work like that. Well this is all the ranting I feel like doing for now. Goodnight all <3

These boys

I am at my aunts house and I am visiting my nephews, and they are just the most amazing things in my life right now. They bring me happiness when I am sad, and they make me laugh all of the time. To be able to watch them grow is amazing and such a wonderful experience. I love these boys with all of my heart and I don't know what I would do if I ever wasn't able to see them.

Tyree who is a year and 3 months is just absolutely fantastic. His smile is enough to make anyone happy. He is so full of energy and he loves to play with his basketball and hoop. He is so cute because not only is he a cute little boy he is also bow-legged like no other. I mean seriously I find it to be adorable.

DaVon, now he is the apple of my eye. He's my little sumo :) He is 7 months and oh god is he big, and when I say big I mean tubby lol This little boy stole my heart the minute he was born; before then even. DaVon is so easily entertained, and he loves to just sit there and be still, which is nice sometimes. He has started crawling and it is so cute to watch him do it. He has two of his bottom teeth but that is it for now.

Anyways, I love Tyree Verlin henderson, Jr. and DaVon Terrell Moffett :)

Jane Doe or should I say- John Doe

I always tell myself and everyone else that my special person, my soulmate is not out there. I thought I had found that person already and it turns out I was wrong. I know I am young still and I still have a lot of time to find "the one", but I have goals/plans. I want to get married and have kids by the time I am 21. I don't want to move out soon and have to live alone. I mean I can't really sleep next to people, but I at least want the experience of sleeping next to someone special. But I am now straying from what I originally wanted to say.
I am writing to the person who will someday come and save me from loneliness. Now, I do not know who this person is yet, but I hope I will someday. So here goes...
Dear John Doe,
I have been waiting for you for some time now. Why have you eluded me for so long? I think about you all of the time. Like what you might look like, what you smell like; I think of what your personality is like. I wonder, do we fit together perfectly like pieces of a puzzle? Just so you know, I do have flaws, but who doesn't? I say that the best people have a ton of flaws, and they aren't afraid to admit it. I hope you are my dream guy times 10, but that doesn't really mean anything since my dream guy is an ever changing man. I have fucked up so many times in relationships and most of the time I don't even know what I did wrong, so if you could please always tell me when I am doing something wrong I would greatly appreciate it. You know, I really feel like I could be a good...no great girlfriend if someone would just give me a chance. Hopefully that someone would be you. I love like it's the last thing I will ever do. I have so much passion about romance and love that it's crasi. I may say all this stuff about never finding someone, but in all actuality I know that my special someone is out there and he is looking for me. Oh well this letter is just so off track lol but I like being able to type this all out. So as I was saying, I am a hopeless romantic. I love reading romance novels, not for all of the sex but for the raw passion that they feel for each other. I want someone to look at me and now I am the one. I don't want them to be shy about it I just want them to go for it, but I sometimes doubt that I will meet someone like that. I want a gentleman who will hold doors open for me, pull out my chair so I can sit down, take me out on a date! It's sad I have had plenty of boyfriends and only one ever took me on a date. I have been on 2 dates since I started dating, or should I say since I started having boyfriends. I am tired of little boys; I want a man or maybe a young man lol I want someone who has their shit together, who knows what he wants in life. I just want someone who will love me and mean it.
I have changed and grown up so much, and I am hoping since I am becoming a better person that maybe good things will come my way, like a guy lol

A commemoration to those I truly care about

I can't stop thinking about how I owe some people thanks. Even the people I now cannot stand. First thanks goes to Jeremy. I owe so many praises, you saved me so many times. I lived for you, and I would have died for you too. I know I fucked up so many times, but you stayed by my side in the only way you could. You put up with my crazy antics and my fucked up games. I loved you for more then 3 years and I will always love you to a degree. You were so understanding and so sincere. I don't understand why you changed so much, but I blame myself, so for that I am sorry. I just have never quite grew up or grown out of certain habits. Please forgive me for that someday.

Second I would like to thank Isaiah. Kidd, you inspired me in so many ways. When we were in groups together you helped me figure things out and learn new ways of thinking. & when you read your poems...I want to write again, but this time I wanted to write as well as you. You have so many great qualities! You are the reason I am back home and wanting to get better. Thank you, and even though we don't talk that much, know that you hold a special place in my heart.

Lemi Kay, gorgeous, I love you. I don't know how you did it, but you actually made it so I could actually love someone and mean it. Thank you for giving me something so special. You have my heart and my friendship for the rest of our lives. I love you best friend.

Momma, where do I start? You are my rock. You have put up with me when nobody else would. You stick by my side even after all the horrid things I have said. You keep me strong. I don't think I would be here right now if it wasn't for you keeping me in line. Thank you for everything mom. I love you so much.

Dad, oh dad. You are funni, smart, sweet, and the best father a girl could ask for. I hope someday I can be as great as you are. You try so hard when I know that things aren't going well for you. You're always so proud of me and I really appreciate that. I love you daddy and thank you for being there for me and for just being my dad.

To all of the kids from FVH:: You guys touched my lives in an amazing way. You made my stay there great. It was amazing to be able to learn new skills with such an amazing group of kids. I will never forget you guys. I love you guys. Thanks for everything.